slack off and get stoned

This week's probably the most unproductive week in my entire college life. I haven't been doing anything important since Sunday, when I finally confirmed that it was a holiday the next day.

Underline unproductive: our Theo ecological project was almost late/rejected and I've missed 6 lectures in total this week. That means a compendium of lecture notes to copy, paperwork on Philo lectures, a missed bonus quiz in Supply Chain Mgt where I got a big fat F for the first long exam, and a recitation on Tuesday. Oh yes, the latter's because we're "penalized" for absences. Except for my once-a-week Project Mgt class, I didn't attend a single Tuesday & Thursday class!

After Monday being a holiday, my notion of having the right to slack a bit carried over to the succeeding days. Blaming other things for my inefficiency is really helpful. And, the BIT of procrastination mutated into VAST.

I was still able to finish our Theo presentation though. I still don't know whether to accuse my other team members for not dealing with it properly. I was the one who did almost everything. I get this slight feeling of injustice. It's still my fault regardless their minimum input to our project. I chose not to pass it to one our group mates who volunteered to finish it. I thought it would be a major hell for her, since she had another project due the next day. I worked for a little over 15 hours to finish this stupid Powerpoint presentation with the whole shebang: infos, music, and animation. It upsets me talking about it.

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I didn't get any sleep last Monday-Tuesday because of that stupid Theo project. And Tuesday compelled me to forgo sleeping because I had go to Greenhills. I bought that equally stupid Naruto head protector to complete my creative picture for our yearbook. Thank God I had bestbud Ka with me to go there, should I suddenly snap lose consciousness from exhaustion and sleepiness.

After that brief trip, I figured to drop by Mateo-Ricci to get Naruto movies from Retcher. Then the funny stuff happened.

Saw Rompz and an MIS girl, whose name I never knew, on my way to Mateo. At this point, I was entirely between reality and the dream world, "semi-consciousness" if you like. I prolly had only a tenth of my brain at the time. They spoke to me, and I didn't understand a word at all. It was kinda scary. My stupid grin and vague comments prolly passed for normalcy and friendliness. But I seriously didn't know what we talked about. I can't even remember what came ouy of my mouth. Mateo did seem dreamlike as well. I must have irked some Celadon peeps when I came looking for the Naruto CDs, "those damned CDs" I thought then.

After bumping into and talking to Rompz and company again, I got on the way out of school. Then it happened. A literal winding road appeared before me after getting out of the bridge. I was scared. But I persevered not to faint. And I was really close to fainting.

When I got to the train station, another familiar face greeted me. It was Jayaps - and dear me a new person - Che. I think it's Che or Che Che. I was semi-conscious already. It didn't register well. Once again, I was at a loss on our conversation. And dammit, she normally proves to be incomprehensible already. So just imagine how baffled I was about her jokes. I was laughing without understanding anything she said.

I realized that I was awake for at least 30 hours. I head to bed right away when I got home.

I don't plan to die before 35, so I should change this habit.

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After finishing Theo on Thursday morning, I got to Meriam to get the samurai costume from Ka. Okay, it was an Aikido outfit really but it would pass of as a Samurai's if you're thinking Kenshin Himura. I headed to school to pass the Theo thing. But upon discovering that other stuff for documentation was needed, I contacted Rach right away to do those miscellaneous stuff. Then, I got to the studio for my grad pic.

Got to wear my polo and tie with shorts! And no that wasn't my creative costume. I'm not that creative, I swear. They only shoo the upper body for the formal grad picture. So I thought wearing shorts was okay. I got a bit of schmaltz when they draped me with the toga, the patch for the school seal, and another thing that seemed to be a medal. At that moment, I thought about leaving Ateneo. And it really pained me. I really love the school. And I think I'm not totally ready to get out and let the work world consume me.

Then the creative pose. The creative pose!!! I donned on the stupid samurai costume and tied the Naruto head protector around my head. When I got to look at myself on the mirror, I thought, I really looked like another Naruto character. I felt really good fantasizing about my being a part of the cartoon. I was also embarrassed to the bones! It would have registered as some form of social suicide in some circles. But I didn't care! It was fun. I got to pull off something drastic and comic before graduating.

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I should really work for next week beginning tomorrow. Tons of readings again and a midterm coming up. Wish me luck, I feel like I'm up and charged to start Saturday properly.