think erin brockovich

Second week of the last semester. It's as if a lot days have gone into the semester already. We're nearing graduation. It's something to dread and to look forward to. While most blogs I got to read recently are preoccupied with meaningful friendships they've had, mine uniquely exudes a tinge of bitterness. It's as if I never enjoyed it. I guess I never got to feel the same high with friends. But there are those exceptional people who I'm sure I'd stay in touch with past graduation.

It's almost Thursday. Hours from now will be the quiz for Theo. I'm a bit antsy about it and I still haven't reviewed my notes. I call this productive procrastination. I'll start in half an hour. We had recitation on history yesterday and I didn't read for it. Luckily, it turned out to be an open recitation. I was totally relieved. Got four chapters to munch for tomorow for that same class.

Got trouble about my ACP! I really want to go to subic despite my friends' desertion. But I can't because we're about to have our immersion this Friday as well. Ugh! I want to go to subic! I opt not to go to my immersion, but then I'd miss out on a lot. Please move the date for immersion! I'm a bit afraid about the immersion thing. I don't know if I can really live with the poor. I know I want to - to know their plight, to know their lives, to learn from them. But I don't feel comfortable at all to get out of my comfort zone. Need some serious psyching-up to do.

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What people need now is liberation theology. Lots of experts trying to marry the world with social concerns. Why don't they try to change these structures instead? I'm not taking out the fact that, maybe by marrying the two, they may change the structures. But is this kind of development enough? It is still subjected to greed. An maybe that's what bugs me. Maybe that's the most difficult thing to remove.

Rizal was shot dead despite his dissension with Bonifacio's revolution. He's our national hero. Going beyond sarcasm, maybe there's other reasons why he's such. Another thing, elections have never been orderly in the Philippines. Tejeros convention. Losers always complain. Even in college, this kind of mentality exists. Some even run for positions of authority after losing an election. Pathetic losers. The republic formed by Aguinaldo killed Bonifacio. This is the birth of our beautiful republic. Going beyond pessimism and skepticism, we are next in line. We better fix things up.

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Got to watch Goblet of Fire last Saturday. It was not at all that great compared to the last three movies! A lot of important details weren't included! Peeps argue that taking out some details was necessary in making the movie. But some character development necessary for the next movie wasn't included! Even Fudge and Dumbledore's disagreement wasn't shown! And, only one dragon?! What about Percy's obsession with the ministry? And Ludo Bagman?! And I swear, the Quidditch world cup didn't go beyond a minute! Even Moody's sort of mentor-ship was not developed properly. They fixed everything up in the dialogues. Ugh, even Fleur and Viktor didn't have proper sentences to deliver. I probably have lots of peeps agreeing with this. It's Harry Potter so I still like it.

I was out with Ka and Ken last Saturday! It was really tiring spending the entire afternoon at school, night at the theaters and a friend's house, and the first three hours of morning in a cafe and a park. I was out until 3 am of Sunday. Get me a real life.

Oh, the title is not related to the entry at all. It was the prevalent feeling I had hours ago. I recommend it to anyone feeling lost. Heh!