emotional lapses

After what seemed like an eternity, I finally got a hold of a friend to spill my brains to. Actually, it turned out more like me blabbering all the inanities I had been brooding about last week. Add to that additional drama, of stories of break-ups (Not mine of course, not that I have to mention this of course.), myths of the good son and daughter, and, of course, my extroverted introverted second guessing- of myself! We even got to a sort of Maalaala Mo Kaya moment at the Starbucks(!) near Binondo Church. I mean, how un-telenovela-ish right? It could have been somewhere more dramatic- like in her dining room in front of her parents (just kidding Ka! hehe!). It was frustrating and fun, which proved a good combination during the long long conversation.

But I still lack company. I mean, I have a lot of things I've been brooding about without anyone to share them to. Okay, they may not necesarily contribute to bringing about world peace but they may be worth people hearing them- to confirm that I am indeed sane. Okay, I'm desperate. This pseudo-journal (i.e. blog) is really an outlet for such thoughts, but I can't divulge everything here because I'd feel like I'm writing for a show. When I talk to people I really really value or look up to, I feel like I'm confirming my ideas, thereby making me rethink them by actually getting responses. Books and writing are too limited for me, but I'm definitely not ruling out that some thoughts or sentimentalities can only be resolved through such media.

Phonecalls are too restricting (not to mention that my ears hurt after 30 mins of usage) and YM's odd. Hopefully, I'd get to have more chitchats this week. I'll be in school on thursday, hopefully I'll see my fave peeps (please, please don't let the witches bump into me). I also sort of scheduled meeting Om, Ka, Mariel, and Andz. Weird. I seem less thrilled about talking now that I've written about my excitement. Oh well, maybe I'm just excied about this week.