Things are really pilling up! I have 2 papers, 1 case study, and major research due within the week- add to that various emplyment exams. The world's rushing us and there's definitely not a minute for bumming around. And why, you say, am I here doodling my most inane thoughts? Well, it's a sort of stress reliever. Since I've depleted the bars of chocolates stocked in my fridge, this would be a proper alternative- well almost.
Shockers. I think I failed the Chikka exam last saturday. My friends figured that, after having four years of university education, we became dumber. I was cursing myself during the math part of the exam. I used to be really really fast in this subject but in the exam, I used all the time required for the part. Twas really frustrating to realize that the math part of my brain doesn't work very well as before. Heh, and I think I will get a few points from the linguistic part of the exam- why the f*** do they even call it that if it has reading comprehension and "text twist" type of questions. Iris said it was an easy test and I really think I'm getting more stupid. I missed the Fujitsu test and ITM group work- not that I really count as someone skilled in that group either- for this test. A friend said that Fujitsu exam was more difficult than Accenture's. Would it count if I know some nihonggo?
See, I'm all about insecurity. Sorry for the peeps I've been with for the past few weeks. I was either sick laughing my ass off or totally grouchy over almost any stuff. It's really a problem when you fear both the post grad scenario and the tons of homework for every course. I do want to believe that all things will go for the better but somehow illusions don't convince me anymore. It's probably vague optimism that I'm after that's why I don't feel alright. I've told my Mother about my plans after grad and I'm very happy she agreed. I plan to take another course after working for a year or two. This time I'll get the program I really want and be serious. It still depends though whether the work world will be friendly to me or otherwise. The point is I have a sort of path to tread. No matter how cheesy it may sound, it holds true that such a feeling makes one want to persist. Still, sappy but what the heck!
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Hey, hey. Looks like you even had time to move things around in here. Yes, we've all become dumber. But you did get to bash your entire college education in that survey thing, right?
Not the entire college education, just the sucky MIS program... You know I worship the jesuits secretly right?
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